Like only a best friend could.
Facebook is so dumb. I always just use it as a tool to keep in touch with friends. Share links. Post funny comments. Upload my photographs. But I hate when I receive serious messages from people on there. I wish that people could just talk to me in person, and have a real conversation with me, instead of just typing away furiously at the internet. I mean I know I run this blog to write about everything I don’t say in reality, but the difference is that for me this is self inflection, and not somewhere I write to share information with other people. If there was something I wanted to say directly to you, I’d say it directly to you, and I wouldn’t write about it on the internet.
I just received a message from this kid. I’ve written about him in the past. Maybe like seven months ago we quit being friends because one day he decided that he didn’t want to be friends anymore. And now he wants to be on speaking terms again. But it’s like, why bother? You gave me up so easily back then. What on Earth could possibly convince me that this friendship is worth investing into again? I’m debating whether or not I should even respond to him. I hate that it’s on facebook and not over drinks or over lunch, because I’d rather communicate with people in reality instead of communicating with them over the internet.
A few week ago I got another serious message on facebook from another person where she spilled her insecurities while insulting my lifestyle. It was kind of really dumb, especially considering that I see her every single day. Instead of responding, I said we’d talk about it later when we had some privacy, but now enough time has passed where I’d like to imagine the thing has blown over. Maybe I should bring it up casually to make sure. I didn’t even take most of the message to heart because it just seemed like rage, and it’s dumb to hold that against somebody forever.
And then there is this other guy. I just wanted to hang out with him, but he rejected me every chance he got, so then whenever I saw his face pop up on my news feed I got annoyed and decided to delete him from my friend’s list so that would no longer be an issue. And then he sent me a picture message of the screen where it says “you and Erik are not friends” and a sad face. And I responded, but like usual he didn’t respond. He once told me that my text messages are not worth replying to. I really only deleted him because I was tired of facebook being a crutch for our friendship to lean on. I haven’t heard from him in seventeen days. Over the course of that time, he’s broken his leg. Does he care about keeping me updated with his life? Nope.
