phoxes asked: boringerik, you are far from boring. I love reading your posts, and I wish I could write down all my thoughts without thinking "wtf who cares if I just kissed my cat and she licked my forehead" *delete*. How dooo you do it? :)
This was such a flattering message to receive in my inbox. So flattering in fact that I visited your page just to make sure that you weren’t actually some spam sex robot trying to get me to join some new website just to see some naked chicks because then I would have felt very stupid for appreciating a generic spam message so much.
I can look at my follower count, or I can look at the amount of notes that a personal blog post of mine gets, but somehow I can’t ever seem to shake the feeling that my blog is a self indulgent piece of crap either. A lot of us suffer from this insecurity. If you want to know how I’m able to continue to post my thoughts, I’ll tell you three things you may or may not know about me judging by how long you’ve been following.
01. Off of the computer, in real life settings, I am a very closed book. I’ve had friends say to me “Erik, I’ve known you for so long, and yet I don’t feel like I know anything about you.” I don’t mean to be mysterious, but I guess that I do not share a whole lot about what I’m thinking or feeling to people. This blog is an exercise in learning how to open up just by opening up to a blank computer screen and to the internet that looks to find something to do with its spare time.
02. I am a man with a death wish and whenever it’s finally my time to die I am fine with knowing that the only imprint I am going to leave with this world is this blog. So I use this blog as a place to pour my thoughts and recap my life. I know that the way I present myself in this blog will never be a completely accurate assessment of the person I am out there in the real world away from the internet, but I feel that it will be something nice to leave behind that is tangible besides a memory.
03. My largest tumblr pet peeve is people who just reblog pictures or posts that other people have made. I just don’t understand that practice. If I like something I’ll actually press the tumblr “like” button on it, and then go on with my life. I can not comprehend what it’s like to be a person who finds satisfaction in owning a blog that has zero original content on it. So I just want to be true to my values and continue to post original content to my blog.
So there, you have it. This is how I “do it.” I would recommend for you to post more original thoughts. I think that it’s a more fulfilling tumblr experience. But everybody’s different. If I were you I’d go ahead and let everyone know about the time you kissed your cat and then she licked your forehead. I think it’s a cute story. But I’ll tell you. Maybe try to lengthen it. Just because, I’ve noticed a lot of people that I follow are beginning to “microblog” and reading their one sentence long posts just reminds me of being on facebook, except that I’m reading status updates from people that I do not even know. But who am I to judge. Honestly, Rebecca. It’s your blog. Reblog what you want to reblog. Write what you want to write. Follow who you want to follow.
Take care and have a great life.
